My boyfriends bother called me a fat ugly manipulative bitch. I can’t stop feeling that I am. I try my best not to be so much that I avoid things that could be conceived as that. I look in the mirror and hate my self. I put my hands on my stomach and think about killing myself or cutting it off. I try to be nice. I try to avoid people and I just want to hide.
I’m not worth the love of my life. I’m not good enough. I am trash.
I should just end it already. He would be happier has life would be easier. He would be happier in the end because of it. He loves the pets and loves where we’ve gotten our selves to. I know he loves me.
But not all relationships are good for each other.
Anonymous asked:Are you still awake?
I need some one to say they care. I want some one to be here. I just want to die. I want it all to end. Because no one notices me. No one sees my pain and no one sees where I am what I’m willing to do to finish this.
I’m a piece of crap. I’m fat and ugly and garbage. I want to burn myself to the ground. Jump out of my Window. Fly for a second and have that be the end.
A second of bliss for eternal silence.
I made this blog to be alone. I made it so no one I knew would see my thoughts. Somehow though I still sit here wishing some one I knew would find them, that they would say I saw the post you made. I saw what your really feeling.
For some one to be kind enough and simply say, I notice you.
It frustrates me when I see people making posts that stereo type and harass a group of people. It frustrates me even more when people try to stand up for the group of people who were harassed and stereo typed, by harassing and stereo typing the people who did it in first place.
You only extend the problem when you do that.
If I were to say ok ok ok guys calling girls stupid is rude and uncalled for, but ALL boys are stupid. Does that fix the problem? No
I’m not saying don’t stand for equality. I’m just trying to convey the point that you can’t expect equality when you yourself are not practicing equality.